As promised!! Here’s a brief essay on this family’s journey towards the Traditional Latin Mass. Don’t forget to check out the lovely essay at the end of the post from the Latin MassSociety:
Why We Attend The Traditional Latin Mass
by Kimberly Wasson
I’m a convert. Born and raised protestant, baptized in a Pentecostal Holiness Church (yep, that’s right folks…they speak in “tongues”, though I never did!). I spent the majority of my young life “church shopping”: Baptist, Pentecostal, Lutheran, Disciples of Christ, Methodist…you name it, I tried it. I memorized scripture, attended weekday fellowship meetings and competed with other little kids to see who could bring the most visitors to church. It was fun. The music was upbeat, everyone was “saved” and Sunday attendance was never mandatory.
The first time I ever visited a Catholic Church was with my Baptist grandmother. She had always loved the Church, but had never converted due to her staunchly Baptist parents and the fear of upsetting them. So she would pay friendly visits to Our Lord in the tabernacle and light candles. She needed no catechesis. She knew Who was there. From the very beginning I was mesmerized by the beauty, the mystery that surrounded me in that Church. Altar rails, pews with kneelers, hauntingly beautiful statuary and brutally rendered crucifixes provided a backdrop that filled the holes that existed in my “bible-believing” background. By the age of ten, I knew…knew that once saved always saved simply wasn’t true. It couldn’t be. The bible certainly didn’t confirm it, and I had memorized all the pertinent verses to help others on the road to salvation. The bible spoke of a Church that was the pillar and foundation of truth. Pillar and foundation of truth…goodness the bible didn’t even make that claim for itself! What Church could this be? I’d been to so many…
It would be many more years, before I would receive that answer. I began reading, reading, reading. And pestering a Catholic friend. I peppered her with questions. In frustration, this same friend finally insisted that I attend an inquirer’s session at a local Catholic Church. I was 25 years old. The meeting was quite informal. I basically assaulted the priest with every question I could dream up…I’m quite sure that I monopolized that particular session. Satisfied with the answers I’d received, I quickly signed up for RCIA.
Now…here’s where the story gets interesting. The first time I entered my local Catholic Church, I was horrified! What happened? Where were the pews? The kneelers? The statues? The tabernacle…oh, there it is…in the corner…wait! Where’s the Crucifix? Why is there a large banner of a butterfly over the altar? This lovely Church had been wrecked…I saw the photos of the old Church in the vestibule. I imagine the purpose of that picture was to show everyone how the Church had been “modernized”, but what I saw was a Church “de-Catholicized”, in fact, it appeared far more protestant than the Methodist church I was attending with my husband and children.
Perhaps you’re wondering why I signed up for RCIA? Why hadn’t I attended Mass a few times to see if I “liked it?” Folks…this wasn’t about “like” or “love”, but about being right. The Catholic Church was the answer for me…the right one. And I needed to be right. Are you following this? I made a “head trip” not a “heart trip” into the Church. My real conversion wouldn’t occur for many years…a story in and of itself.
It took me two years to enter the Church. No annulments or messy things to clean up…I simply couldn’t reconcile a lot of the things I would hear in RCIA with the Catechism of the Catholic Church. The DRE (who was a Franciscan nun) told us many things that were irreconcilable with the faith. She basically negated the necessity of Confession, insisted that women would one day be priests and referred to God as Mother/Father.
I quit.
The Hound of Heaven is quite persistent. I had to persevere. After much suffering, many tears and the weekly agony of RCIA, I finally entered the Church. What a relief! I was so thankful that I had finished that I didn’t go back for at least two weeks. Shocking, isn’t it? Where was my fervor? I had received my Lord and my God into my very self. I was a member of His Body, and yet I never wanted to go back to that Church…I wanted to find out what happened to the Church that I had seen as a child, read about in books. I wanted to find the beauty of the faith that had been captured in centuries of art. I knew it existed. Somehow it had been misplaced.
So I searched. I visited other Catholic Churches. Many of them were very orthodox but none were close to home. By this time, my husband, grandmother (yes!!! The same grandma that always wanted to be a Catholic) and my mother had joined the Church. We had begun to attend regularly, and I must admit, that Mass was sometimes a near occasion of sin for me. I was so angry at the liturgical abuses. So angry that no one seemed to care. Frustrated and feeling very much alone. My husband, on the other hand, was the model Catholic…he always felt at home, no matter what kind of “hospitality” he received…how much I could learn from him! Though he too lamented what our weekly Mass had become, he remained encouraging to me and the children. His faith has always been one of the heart, a heart full of generosity and goodwill.
A few years later, I experienced a “Saul on the road to Damascus” kind of conversion. Sounds tantalizing and I promise to share it, but not now. It’s a long and mystical journey, better suited for another time…
My heart was on fire. Consumed with a burning love for my God, my Faith, my Church, I struggled to make the best of what was before me. For ten years we lived in a desert, one of constant battles to protect the innocence of our children when immoral materials were introduced in CCD, battles to obtain the sacrament of Penance before First Holy Communion, as dictated by the Catechism. My husband and I taught CCD, trying desperately to correct the errors that were being promoted in the classroom. We began homeschooling. We watched a succession of priests, with no essential change. None would stand up to the DRE. (*this DRE has since been reassigned to another country, and an orthodox Bishop is slowly but surely trying to turn the tide of modernism*)
We prayed for a miracle. And it happened.
In the midst of this desert, two friends arrived. They were our solace, our comfort and the “manna” that we desperately needed. And then they moved. My dear Sandra would write, telling me of the incredible new parish they had found, the Mass was in Latin, the priest was an angel…in other words, they had been lead out of Egypt and into the Promised Land.
At least that’s how it seemed to me. I was still in Egypt, wandering, looking for solace, reminding myself that my Lord is just as present at a badly handled Mass, as He is in the most orthodox ceremony.
But it was hard.
Back to the miracle! These wonderful friends invited us to check out their parish, with the offer of a rent-free dwelling if we were willing to chance a move. In other words, a whole new life. New home, new job, new parish. It was enticing, to say the least, but quite frightening for a family that owned a home and had lived in a community for more than 17 years. We scheduled a weekend off and paid our friends a visit. We loved the community, but were anxious for a visit to the Church, we decided that if God had something to tell us, we would best hear His Voice there.
I remember donning my veil for the first time. I’ve worn one ever since. There was something so beautiful, so humbling about approaching the doors of the Church, unfolding the mantilla, carefully situating it, even feeling a bit self-conscious. Those feelings soon passed as I entered Holy Family Catholic Church. Breathtakingly beautiful…the heady scent of incense filled the air. We were a bit late and had to sit in the back of the Church. No missal, no expectations…just the extraordinary beauty, the exquisitely lovely words that transcend time and space, the “smells and bells” as some would call them.
I wept. I needed no missal. I knew these words. I had heard them in my heart. This was the song, the beautiful love song that time had woven. “Organic development” is so unromantic, but that was exactly what this Mass was. Something natural, something that had grown, developed and yet still maintained the roots of its origin. There were no words necessary. Roger and I shared a single glance and we both knew, we had heard that Voice.
We moved. Stepping out in absolute trust and faith, believing firmly that this was what we were called to. There were ups and downs, but the blessings and graces were and continue to be, immeasurable. The faith life of this family has changed so completely. We long to go to Church, we hunger for it! Yes…even the children. When we first moved, we lived across the street from an amazingly beautiful Catholic Church. There were the inevitable days (bad weather, car troubles) that would require our attendance at this local church. The children would weep. Weep. They could sleep in two hours, didn’t have to travel a half hour into Columbus and didn’t have to sit for an hour and a half. They didn’t care. They wanted their Church. They weren’t looking for friends and donuts. We had all stumbled upon a beautiful mystery, a story of such historical depth…we’re all still waiting for the surprise ending!
The fervor remains. All four boys now serve on the altar, begging us to leave as early as possible every Sunday morning. They sprint up the stairs of the sacristy, young knights ready to don their vestments to serve the King. Every weekend, we watch the sanctuary fill with young men, seminarians and visiting priests. Twelve vocations in the past ten years from this small inner city parish…that is the fruit of this beautiful Mass. It is our prayer that our own family may be graced with a vocation or two. What an honor it would be to give back to God these children He has so generously placed in our care.
The Traditional Latin Mass is alive and well…large families, lots of babies and little ones, as Father says: “It’s my youngest and best attended Mass…I believe the average age is somewhere around 4.”
We still occasionally attend the Ordinary Form. It’s important that our children recognize the validity of this Mass as well as the rubrics. But it’s always different, everywhere we go. Ultimately, we recognize that the only continuity we will experience will be that which exists in the Traditional Latin Mass…there is no room improvement. None is needed.
If you have a chance to attend a Latin Mass, give it a try. It is lovely to remember what was, what is and what will always be…
The Beauty and Spirituality
of the Traditional Latin Mass
by David Joyce
(The Holy Mass as referred to in this essay is the traditional Latin Mass
of the ancient Roman rite, as celebrated until 1965 in the Latin Church)
It is the Mass that Cardinal Newman, the leader of the Oxford movement into the Church, said that he could attend forever, and not be tired. Father Faber, priest of the Brompton Oratory in the last century, described the Mass as the “most beautiful thing this side of heaven”, and he continued:
“It came forth out of the grand mind of the Church, and lifted us out of earth and out of self, and wrapped us round in a cloud of mystical sweetness and the sublimities of a more than angelic liturgy, and purified us almost without ourselves, and charmed us with the celestial charming, so that our very senses seemed to find vision, hearing, fragrance, taste, and touch beyond what earth can give”
Father Adrian Fortescue, a great English liturgical historian, has said that the Mass of the Roman rite is the most venerable rite in Christendom.
Pious Popes, too, have often wondered at the majesty of the Mass. Pope Clement VII said in 1604:
“Since the Most Holy Sacrament of the Eucharist by means of which Christ Our Lord has made us partakers of His sacred Body, and ordained to stay with us unto the consummation of the world, is the greatest of all the Sacraments, and it is accomplished in the Holy Mass and offered to God the Father for the sins of the people, it is highly fitting that we who are in one body which is the Church, and who share of the one Body of Christ, would use in this ineffable and awe- inspiring Sacrifice the same manner of celebration and the same ceremonial observance and rite”
and Pope Urban VII in 1634 said:
“If there is anything divine among man’s possessions which might excite the envy of the citizens of heaven (could they ever be swayed by such a passion), this is undoubtedly the Most Holy Sacrifice of the Mass, by means of which men, having before their eyes, and taking into their hands the very Creator of heaven and earth, experience, while still on earth, a certain anticipation of heaven.
How keenly, then, must mortals strive to preserve and protect this inestimable privilege with all due worship and reverence, and be ever on their guard lest their negligence offend the angels who vie with them in eager adoration!”
The Mass! What a treasure! Christ’s very own sacrifice on the cross left for us wrapped in an act seeping with beauty and divine celebration. Below I describe a few of its important qualities that set it apart in this day and age, that truly make it “the most beautiful thing this side of heaven”.
1. The Silence of the Canon
The entire Canon of the Mass is devoid of any vocal sounds, other than one phrase “Nobis quoque peccatoribus” where the priest strikes his breast, emphasising his own sinfulness and unworthiness of celebrating such an unspeakably divine action. The only other sound is when the bell is rung, initially at the “Hanc igitur” as a warning bell to inform the faithful of the impending consecration, and then three times at each consecration: when the priest genuflects before the divine oblation, when he raises the divine victim in an elevation of worship and adoration, and finally when he genuflects again. Otherwise, complete silence.
Why this silence, when the canon is the most important part of the Mass? Simply because of that fact. The canon of the Mass joins the earthy sphere to the heavenly sphere. Christ’s sacrifice was performed once and for all; it can never be repeated as it was the eternal and perfect sacrifice to end all sacrifices. However, since the victim and the priest was God, the person of our Lord Jesus Christ, the effects are infinite: the entire human race was redeemed wherever they lived, regardless of time or space. But an important fact is that the act that Christ performed was placed within His creation, and at a particular point in time. Therefore, for the sacrifice of the cross to become effective universally over all time, it needed to be perpetuated through the ages by a priesthood acting in the person of our Lord and presenting His sacrifice anew to a new generation. This is why Christ built His Church: to bring forth the graces of the incarnation, to prolong it and “make present” its effects to all people. The sacrifice of the cross, and the consecration in the Mass, are timeless entities in a temporal world.
The silence, therefore, enables us to transcend our present existence and become present at the foot of the cross itself. Our senses, so active in the outside world, are suppressed so that our soul can touch the divine presence of God on the altar, so that we may be lifted up with the oblation to the altar of God Himself in heaven, surrounded by all the Hosts and angels in constant prayer and adoration. We, in effect, dip our toes into the pool of eternity, no longer limited by our earthly existence in time and space, but instead become one with our Lord in offering ourselves to God the Father in the one perfect act of self-giving, love and adoration.
Our senses are not totally silenced though. Through our eyes, we see the Holy Victim raises up to the Father in the form of bread and wine; closing our eyes we see the cross above us and the angelic party beyond. In our ears, we hear the ringing of bells, confirming what we see and what we feel in our hearts. In our nostrils, we smell the sweet odour of incense, floating up to heaven accompanying the Victim to the altar of God. It is truly an entire experience of Body and Soul where the carpet of life is swept from underneath us revealing the eternal reality of the cross and the truth of God’s love for each and everyone of us.
Using vocal words in the canon would defy this divine reality, it would seemingly bring the events down to a level of speech and thought, rather than action and sacrifice. We must feel with our heart and soul the event taking place, not hear with our ears the words which enact the event. Only silence can penetrate this mystery, with our spirit lifting us above that temporal actions of the priest into the divine and eternal reality of the High Priest: our Lord on the Cross.
2. The Orientation of the Priest
Traditionally, the priest has always faced east, standing before the altar leading the people in worship and sacrifice with Christ our Lord to our Father in heaven. The east is where the sun rises, a symbol of the rising of the Son of God, His glorious resurrection and the direction of His eventual second coming. Standing before the altar, the symbol of the offering of the sacrifice is clear to all, elevated slightly above the nave and the rest of the sanctuary, lifting the sacrifice heavenward in an act of worship and atonement.
Please note that I do not use the terminology “facing the altar” or “facing the people”, because this inevitably confuses why the priest is standing before the altar and not behind it. The people who are there are following the priest along the path to eternal life. Holy Mass is not merely a meeting or an act of praise with the presider guiding the people: it is an act of sacrificial worship and a step to eternal life. We join the priest, who acts in “persona Christi”, in offering the sacrifice, Christ Himself, to God the Father. The entire proceedings are a spiritual affair: we leave our worldly worries behind at the doorway and enter a place of dimmed lights, hushed tones and reverence towards the divine presence within. The priest leads the people in prayer and worship, we follow as his obedient flock, as a shepherd leads his sheep to green pastures and lush grass. It allows for intense prayer: the priest concentrates on the offering of the sacrifice, the people concentrate on following him and lifting their hearts up to the Father with their Lord on the cross. The interaction between priest and the faithful is minimised so that the interaction between the soul of each person and God is emphasised through the sacred liturgy.
3. The Prayers at the Foot of the Altar
The job of a priest is awesome indeed. Offering any sacrifice to God is a heavy responsibility. When the offering is also God, with God acting through your ordained ministry, the responsibility is beyond human comprehension. Suppose that when walking you turned a corner and met a priest talking to an angel, who would you greet first? The angel would be constantly in the presence of God, sinless and perfect in his praise and worship of God. However, you should greet the priest before the angel, due to the dignity of his vocation: in his capacity, he acts in “persona Christi” bringing forth the graces of God’s sacraments, whilst an angel merely carries messages from God, he does not act in His place.
Due to this immense responsibility, in the traditional Latin Mass the priest approaches the altar with extreme care and awareness of his own unworthiness. Once the altar pieces are in place, he positions himself at the level of the surrounding sanctuary (normally two or three steps down from the altar itself) and starts the prayers at the foot of the altar. These include psalm 42, which pleads for God’s grace, preparing the priest for his actions on the altar. He then, without moving forwards, bows down low and prays the Confiteor confessing to God – thrice – that through his own fault he has sinned exceedingly in thought, word and deed. The server pleads to God: “May almighty God have mercy on thee and, having forgiven thee thy sins, bring thee to life everlasting” – asking God for his forgiveness for the poor and frail priest! The Confiteor is then repeated, this time for the server and the faithful present, thus signifying a deep divide between priesthood and laity. The priest continues, with the server, in asking for God’s help, and finally – after all this – ascends the steps to the altar with the prayer:
“Take away from us our iniquities, we beseech Thee, O Lord; that, being made pure in heart we may be worthy to enter into the Holy of Holies. Through Christ our Lord. Amen.”
These proceedings reflect the theology of the Old Testament priesthood, thus providing us with a continuation and fulfilment of that priesthood in the person of Christ Himself, and the priests He has since ordained.
Once the Mass is over, the priest again bows low and offers up the following prayer:
“May the lowly homage of my service be pleasing to Thee, O most holy Trinity: and do Thou grant that the sacrifice which I, all unworthy, have offered up in the sight of Thy majesty, may be acceptable to Thee, and, because of Thy loving-kindness, may avail to atone to Thee for myself and for those for whom I have offered it up. Through Christ our Lord. Amen.”
Thus the priest further emphasises his inadequacy in offering the divine victim, recognising his human frailty before God and all those present. For me, this is a great expression of humility before Almighty God, who in His own infinite humility in the incarnation, instituted the Catholic priesthood in offering up the Eucharist until the end of the age.
4. The Use of Latin
The use of Latin in the Mass is very important. Firstly, it is the language of the Roman Catholic Church. It symbolises a real and true unity across the many countries in which the Mass is celebrated. Wherever you may enter a church in the Latin rite, the whole proceedings will be instantly familiar to you, bringing home an immediate feeling of the universality of the Church. The Catholic Church is truly universal, not fixed to one country or culture, but transcends national boundaries by simply using the same language, symbolising its unity in faith, authority and sources of revelation.
Secondly, Latin is a dead language. It is no longer used as a language in the streets, therefore it has stopped evolving as vernacular languages constantly do. Due to this, the meaning of the words has set in stone, and the liturgy does not need to be revised to avoid offending certain people for whom the words have taken on a different meaning. The dead language has, then, been turned into a “liturgical language” used for the liturgical celebration of the Church. This is not specific to the Latin rite either. The Russian Orthodox Church (although separate from Rome) uses Church Slavonic and the Greek Orthodox Church uses ancient Greek. When the Church was setting up in China, the missionaries there appealed to Rome that the locals truly could not use Latin as a language since it was so foreign to them. Subsequently, the Vatican decreed that the Church there could use ancient Chinese that was no longer in use, thus retaining its liturgical usage.
Thirdly, Latin exhibits a beauty and elegance that seemingly no vernacular tongue can match. Dietrich von Hildebrand, described by Pope Pius XII as a doctor of the 20th century Church, describes this feature as follows:
“Latin is in a unique position here. First, Latin grammar has an uncommon clarity, and to know it, is an incomparable training for our thinking. Secondly, Latin has a great beauty, a spiritual nobility of quite a special sort. This is also true of medieval Latin, which moreover produced works of highest poetical art and religious depth. One need only think of the Dies irae, which is ascribed to Thomas of Celano, of Jacapone da Todi’s Stabat mater, of the magnificent hymns of St. Thomas Aquinas, of the sequences of Venantius Fortunatus, and many others. The role which Latin has played in history, especially in the liturgy, and the universality which it possesses, gives the learning of Latin quite a special place” (“The Devastated Vineyard” by Dietrich von Hildebrand, page 90).
Latin is not a barrier, but an invitation into the treasures of the Church, both in liturgy and music. It cannot be seen as an obstacle to potential converts, or to the laity in general, as the personal piety of the laity, and conversions to the Church and also to the priesthood, were flourishing when the Latin Mass was the jewel in the Church’s crown.
5. The Gregorian Chant
As many popular music charts have indicated recently, the Gregorian chant appeals to the soul now as much as ever. Its sublime effect on the proceedings of the Mass is never to be underestimated; it truly seems to be music from heaven. St. Gregory the Great, a Pope in the 6th/7th centuries, organised the Church music and formally defined the Gregorian chant as it has been sung in the Church ever since. St. Pope Pius X further reformed the music of the Church, making a revision “not of the text but of the music. The Vatican Gradual of 1906 contains new, or rather restored, forms of the chants sung by the celebrant, therefore to be printed in the Missal” (according to Adrian Fortescue). Furthermore, the Second Vatican Council stated that the Gregorian chant “should be given pride of place in liturgical services” (Sacrosanctum concilium, 116). Mozart himself said that “he would gladly exchange all his music for the fame of having composed the Gregorian Preface”, and Berlioz, who himself wrote a grandiose Requiem, said that “nothing in music could be compared with the effect of the Gregorian Dies Irae” (Latin Mass Society, newsletter no. 111, page 23).
The Gregorian chant connects with the soul, not the mind of the believer (and non- believer alike). Without any knowledge of the traditional Mass, people are somehow drawn towards the divine mysteries of the Church through the treasure of the Gregorian chant. I personally was at a loss in the first Latin Mass I ever attended – a Low Mass – but subsequently I attended a Sung Mass with the Gregorian chant and to term a present day saying: “I was blown away”! It has a mysterious quality that silences the senses and speaks directly to the spirit within, connects with that ever- present desire – however suppressed – that yearns for the “unmoved mover” Who answers all our questions and aspirations. The chant, an expression of most religions, has seemingly found its perfect setting in the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass – not the concert hall or opera house – but praising the merits of our Saviour before the Holy of Holies.
6. The Reception of Communion
The reception of Communion within the rubrics of the traditional Mass takes place within a sublime and prayerful world, separated from the rushed and physical world in which we live. Again, in the traditional Mass the physical actions of the faith are downplayed so that the spiritual aspect of our existence can revel and take precedence.
Firstly, the priest receives Holy Communion at a distinctly separate time apart from the servers and laity. He recites many beautiful prayers whilst consuming the Host and Chalice, before turning his attention to the servers and faithful present. He does, for instance, have a separate “Lord, I am not worthy…” prayer, said three times with the bell ringing. When he turns to the faithful, holding a piece of the Sacred Host towards them, he says “Behold the lamb of God…”, and the faithful then recite their own “Lord, I am not worthy…”, further emphasising the different roles of priest and laity.
Secondly, when the faithful themselves receive Communion, they receive It kneeling at the altar rail, and directly onto their tongue. This is very significant. Receiving Communion whilst kneeling means that the faithful line up in a row before the sanctuary, and thus have time to prepare themselves for this most sacred of events: coming into spiritual and substantial union with Christ Himself. The communicant kneels down, and whilst he waits for the priest to make his way around, he can settle himself, concentrate on the upcoming Communion with our Lord praying intensely. When it is his turn, the priest says the prayer: “May the body of Our Lord Jesus Christ keep your soul until life everlasting. Amen”. This means, besides the beauty and the significance of the words themselves, that the priest says the word “Amen” so that the communicant need not invoke his voice to receive the King of Kings, allowing a constant stream of prayer and thanksgiving to flow from soul to Saviour. The communicant simply needs to expose his tongue, and his side of the proceedings is complete. Upon receiving Christ, he can continue praying for a little while, and only then does he need to return to his seat, leaving room for the next communicant. Moreover, having the priest come over to the communicant signifies that Christ comes to us, feeds us with His own divine life, whilst we wait kneeling and unmoving like little children totally dependent on His love, mercy and compassion. This is the message of the Gospel: to become like little children, submitting our wills to His and depending totally on Him for everything. We cannot even feed ourselves without Christ’s help, and the action of Communion in the traditional manner demonstrates this in a very vivid manner.
Finally, receiving Communion directly on the tongue further increases the spiritual tranquillity of the whole act. The priest, as above, performs the entire action in dealing with the sacred Host Itself. The danger of leaving particles of the Host on one’s own hands is then avoided, as well as more worrying sacrileges such as the Host being taken away, uneaten, dropped on the floor, or even taken to Satanic gatherings. If a particle is left on the communicant’s hand, however small and invisible to the eye, It is still our Lord entire, Body, Blood, Soul and Divinity. He remains fully present in the species of the Host until the Host looses the accidents of bread. Moreover, if we are allowed to directly touch the Blessed Sacrament, we may become casual or careless in our Lord’s presence, thus giving rise to irreverence before the great Sacrament Itself. Only allowing the priest to touch the Host also increases our respect and reverence, not only of the Blessed Sacrament, but of the priesthood itself and all who take it upon themselves to enter it. The sacred Host is, after all, the very substance of God incarnate: something that demands our extreme reverence and holy fear. To restrict touching It to the priesthood alone can only increase these virtues.
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I have covered six main qualities of the traditional Latin Mass above which are certainly not the only ones. The whole ethos of the Mass exhibits a profound belief in the doctrines of the one true Church of Christ, especially in the Holy Sacrifice and the substantial presence of our Lord, Jesus Christ. The beauty and Catholicism of the offertory prayers confirm the doctrine of the Catholic faith in the upcoming consecration, unambiguously. The rubrics of the Mass are very strict; when we attend a Latin Mass we know what to expect – it depends on the Mass itself, not the personalities that surround it. The repeated genuflections of the priest before the sacred species confirm this most divine presence, as well as his repeated signs of the cross over It, before and after the consecration. Before the consecration these actions serve to bless and set the offering apart, after the consecration to signify the reality of the cross before us and its redemptive quality. The genuflections within the creed and the last gospel emphasise our belief in the profound doctrine of the incarnation, the centre of the Christian faith. The striking of the breast, during the Confiteor and the “Lord I am not worthy…” bring in all aspects of our existence to increase our realisation of own unworthiness and the infinite love and mercy of God.
The traditional Mass is not something heard or listened to. It is a divine experience seeping with the beauty of the faith, that touches the heart and soul of all who participate, giving a boost to the spirituality of those who immerse themselves in its mysteries. The secular world is the battleground; the Mass is the place that charges us up, puts us in touch with our divine mission and motivates us to face the prince of this world with great courage and faith.
I conclude by completing the quote by Cardinal Newman, who composed the following glowing praise for the Holy Sacrifice of the Mass, speaking by the mouth of his hero in his book “Loss and Gain”:
“I declare, to me nothing is so consoling, so piercing, so thrilling, so overcoming, as the Mass, said as it is among us. I could attend Masses forever and not be tired. It is not a mere form of words, it is a great ACTION – the greatest action that can be on earth. It is not the invocation merely, but, if I dare use the word, the evocation of the Eternal. He becomes present on the altar in flesh and blood, before Whom the angels bow and devils tremble. This is that awful event which is the end and is the interpretation of every part of the solemnity. Words are necessary, but as means, not as ends; they are not mere addresses to the throne of grace, they are instruments of what is far higher, of consecration, of sacrifice. They hurry on, as if impatient to fulfil their mission. Quickly they go – the whole is quick; for they are all parts of one integral action. Quickly they pass, for the Lord Jesus goes with them, as He passed along the lake in the days of His flesh, quickly calling first one and then another. Quickly they pass, because as the lightning which shineth from one part of the heaven unto the other, so is the coming of the Son of man. Quickly they pass; for they are as the words of Moses, when the Lord came down in the cloud, calling on the name of the Lord as He passed by: ‘The Lord, the Lord God, merciful and gracious, long-suffering and abundant in goodness and truth.’ And as Moses on the mountain, so we, too, ‘make haste and bow our heads to the earth, and adore.’ So we, all around, each in his place, looking out for the great Advent, ‘waiting for the moving of the water,’ each in his place, with his own heart, with his own wants, with his own thoughts, with his own intentions, with his own prayers, separate but concordant, watching what is going on, watching its progress, uniting in its consummation; not painfully and hopelessly following a hard form of prayer from beginning to end, but like a concert of musical instruments, each differing but concurring in a sweet harmony, we take our part with God’s priest, supporting him, yet guided by him. There are little children there, and old men, and simple laborers, and students in seminaries, priests preparing for Mass, priests making their thanksgiving; there are innocent maidens, and there are penitent sinners; but out of these many minds rises one eucharistic hymn, and the great Action is the measure and the scope of it.”

I am a traditional Catholic homeschooling mother of 9 children, married for 30 years to the most patient and sainted man. As converts to Catholicism in 1991, our family has only recently discovered the beauty and full expression of our beliefs in the timeless liturgy of antiquity, the Extraordinary Form also commonly referred to as the Traditional Latin Mass. An avid knitter, I also enjoy gardening, reading and immersing myself in the everyday graces of my vocation.
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Kimberly,
Let me first thank you for the Fr. Z photos. I haven’t seen him since he was here in Metro Denver for a Wanderer Forum presentation in, I believe, 2002.
We too are blessed to have the “Extraordinary form of the Mass”, at our FSSP apostolate in Littleton, Colorado. We have been regular attendees since the Fraternity arrived here in the late summer of 1996.
I am a revert. I served this Mass from 1958 to 1966 along with my older brother for much of that time. Following Vatican II and the imposition of the New Mass, to quote Mae West, “I drifted”.
My wife and children brought me back to the Church. We too have taught CCD classes. I prepared the young teens for Confirmation, while my wife was honored to prepare children for first Confession and first Communion.
Is it not a great Grace and the manifestation of a loving God, that we all ended up assisting at the Tridentine Mass?
As an aside, you may attend Mass with a friend of ours, Dr. Arvin Gallinosa. If you know him, tell him that John and Jodi from Colorado say hi and send their blessings.
Hi,
I’m an SSPX attendee in Brisbane, Australia and I wish to encourage you in your literary efforts in promoting the Traditional Mass – the True Mass of the True Catholic (pre – Vatican II) Church.
Hello, Debbie:
I appreciate your kind and encouraging words regarding the promotion of the Traditional Latin Mass. I absolutely agree with you that we must promote the sacred liturgy of antiquity in every way. However, I must disagree with your statement regarding the “True Catholic Church.” The Church remains true…this has never changed, no matter how badly the Council may have been implemented, the Holy Spirit still guards and protects Holy Mother Church. Loyalty to the Magisterium, loving support of the Church which is Christ’s Body on earth are hallmarks of Traditional Catholicism. Without obedience to and respect for the headship of our Holy Father, I would never be able to refer to myself as Catholic. As a former Protestant, I know what it is to be “out of communion” with Rome.
Kimberly sensitively well put to Debbie. I mourn the schism that created the SSPX. I believe in the stand and declaration that was made and I pray for the healing of our one day being rejoined. I married a Catholic born woman 21 years ago and came to the truth from outside it in just over 9 years ago. I part from my wifes silent love of God and patient (unknown at the time) vigilant prayer for my conversion of heart. Like you it started as a conversion of head. To me, I think like you, it was a choice that was really no choice at all it simply was the only right thing to do. I have not had the pleasure of attending a Latin Mas but looking forward to one soon!
Kimberley, I could have wept when I read your beautiful post about the Latin Mass.
My conversion story is very long and winding, but a year ago the Holy Spirit re-converted my heart back to the Catholic church. To my astonishment, He also gave me a great longing for the silence, reverence and beauty of the Latin Mass. But in this diocese it is absolutely forbidden by the Bishop- we are not even supposed to kneel at Mass (but I sit at the back and do so.) Every Mass I attend makes my heart bleed and the longing is almost unbearable sometimes. Spiritually I feel totally isolated. When Oh Lord?
I offer all this pain up for the conversion of the church in NZ and pray for it constantly.
Your lovely post gave me hope. Thank you.
Hi Kimberley,
What a wonderful site. Keep up the good fight.
I am a convert myself and attend the tradtional mass exclusively.
Not because I consider it invaild but because it waters down the faith and
Hi Kimberley,
What a wonderful site. Keep up the good fight raising a Godly family.
I am a convert myself and attend the tradtional mass exclusively, not because I consider the new mass invaild but because it waters down the faith and blurs the lines bettween the priests unique role and that of the laity, not to mention the numerous abuses.
My wife and I have our ninth child on the way so far we have one girl and seven boys in row.
You obviously don’t need a lesson on the whys and wherefores of the Tradtional mass.
I do however think that it is clear that the statements about Rome concerning the SSPX should leave you with no doubt that those who attend their masses are not outside the Church, and remain Catholics in good standing.
It is not a sin to fullful your Sunday obligation at an SSPX chapel nor are you becoming a Schismatic, as the post from Kevin would seem to suggest.
With regard to obedience we must remember that Paul VI made the New mass obilgitory for the Church which in effect abolished the Tradtional mass.
If it weren’t for those priests and Bishops ‘disobedience’ the tradtional mass would never have been preserved for us. As the ‘indults’ of 1984 and 1988 were in fact a response to curb the Laitys support of the ‘disobedent movement’.
The use of such language as true mass and true Church by ‘Debbie’ clearly isn’t helpful as you pointed out as it suggests that the Church has in-fact failed in it’s mission which is impossible. But I think it is understandable as many of the Churches and comments from Catholic prelates tend to give us the impression they have established thier own ‘New Religion’ in the place of the true one.
God bless you in your endevours and may God grant us the Vocations we ardently desire.
Jeff Telford. Melbourne Australia.
Hi Kimberly, from another Kimberly!
As a relatively new convert to Catholicism, I have never attended a traditional Latin Mass. I find the “ordinary” Mass to be incredibly beautiful in and of itself, but after reading this information, I’m beginning to think I’m missing something! It sounds wonderful indeed, and I will definitely seek out opportunities to attend a Latin Mass in the future.
Also, I really enjoyed reading what you shared about your conversion to Catholicism. I’ve been contemplating, for some time, how to share about my own conversion on my blog. You have inspired me! And now, of course, I am super curious to read about your “Saul on the road to Damascus” conversion. I am going to add your site to my blog roll so that I will remember to check back often. Every time I’ve stopped by, I’ve found interesting things to read!
May God richly bless you and yours.
~ Kimberly
Wow. This is nearly haunting. As someone who has grown up Protestant, and is only a recent convert to the Church, I feel deeply when I read this. My husband and I are looking to leave our current home (Amarillo, TX) for the simple fact that there is no Latin Mass, and the parishes here are infected with modernism. I am constantly reminded of such when I sit down and feel “at home” of my old self; I know the ‘worship’ songs, I’m used to the upbeat music. And I’m used to churches with banners (what ARE some of those wavy ones?! And WHAT is the point?!)….*shudder* And it’s not where I belong, nor where Christ’s Church is, I know.
I am just starting a blog (link is included), and will elaborate on our search for the Church, Latin Mass, and my conversion if you care to read (I haven’t posted yet…).
I also relate to the horror RCIA classes stories; I was rushed through RCIA, and for someone who had been about 25yrs Baptist/non-denominational, it wasn’t nearly helpful enough. I knew more about the Bible stories than everyone else in the class, but didn’t come away with much I didn’t already know…the crash course was crazy.
Anyway, sorry to babble on. I am so thankful and grateful to have found your blog! God watch over you and yours!
Praised Be Jesus Christ.
Hi
My name is Jason Burdette I live her in Evanston IL attend once in well Church in Chicago name Saint John Cantius it has the latin mass on Sunday and the every day of the week. The reason for me attending the Latin Mass is very reverent, like most of you in allot of churches there is abuse toward the Eucharist, Minster of Eucharist serving Communion people not kneeling or receving on the toung in allot churches where they do not have the latin Mass people are disrespecting the Sacraments of the Church.
God Bless
Hi Kimberly!
Oh, what I wouldn’t give to be attending Latin Mass again! I always thought there seemed to be a lack of reverence, or something, after Vatican II.
I have since been attending the Lutheran church with my dh (a lifelong Lutheran). He was to be joining the Catholic Church, but long story later, he did not and I ended up going to the Lutheran Church, so that our family could be on the same page as far as church was concerned.
Our wedding was lovely though. My great-aunt (I believe she was about 90 at the time, died at 100) said it was the most beautiful Catholic wedding she had attended in years. We had what they called (at the time) a High Mass, with three priests. I had the priest that baptised me, the priest that was at my confirmation (my family had moved, so we were in a different parish by that time) and then the current priest of our parish.
I am the godmother to my niece and nephew, who are being raised in the Church.
I know what you mean about missing the old churches, where the Latin Mass is said weekly, with the incense and bells. Ah, those bells. How I do miss their sound! I attended a Catholic school when young, and we attended daily mass. I miss the wearing of the mantillas.
You have a lovely family! You have handsome sons and beautiful daughters. I think it would be wonderful if one or more of them decided to give their life over to the priesthood, although, I am also the mother of a lovely young lady, and I do hope some of those sons go on to pursue a lovely, godly young girl as their wife! The world needs young men like that, both in the priesthood, and out there becoming husbands and fathers!
May the Lord bless and keep your family!
~Kathy
Kathy!!
How sweet you are! You’ve left me so many kind and encouraging words on a day I really need it! Just now, I sat down at the computer, grumpy and disheartened by some of the days events…your kind words have cheered me considerably! Thank you so very much for visiting me…I hope to hear from you often…
Blessings,
Kimberly
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Dear Kimberly,
We are looking for a possible relocation to the Pan Handle area…possibly Amarillo area. We are latin Mass at FSSP and SSPX…could you tell me where there are Latin Masses in the Pan Handle/Amarillo area?
Thank you!
Adjutorium nostrum in nomine Domini,
Elvira
Dear Elvira:
Here is a website where you can research Latin Masses in Texas. I’m not all that familiar with the Lone Star state, though I do have friends who attend the Latin Mass in the Dallas/Fort Worth area. I hope this website will be helpful to you:
http://web2.airmail.net/carlsch/MaterDei/churches.htm#texas
I know another commenter has expressed concern over the lack of a Latin Mass in Amarillo…but that was some time ago, so perhaps things have changed?
May God bless you as you prepare for your relocation!
Kimberly
Happy Halloween. Halloween has become one of my favorite times of the year! Saw your blog today Halloween 2010, and must admit your comments on halloween were similar to the words of my homily this morning! Just to let you know, the man who once drew Caspar the friendly ghost is Msgr. Joseph Funaro of the Diocese of Brooklyn… he drew Caspar during his summers off from seminary… he is the priest who baptized me. God Bless you and your family!
Thank you so much for your kind comment, Father! What a fascinating bit of information about my favorite “friendly” ghost, Caspar! God bless you…you will be in my prayers!
PRAISED BE JESUS CHRIST!!!
Kimberly~ I absolutely wept reading this!!! I COULD HAVE WRITTEN IT (except I am a “cradle Catholic” whose family stopped attending Mass right after I was Confirmed… and I didn’t attend another Mass for almost a decade!). I married my “high school sweetheart” (also a cradle Catholic) and we returned to Mass (Novus Ordo) while still engaged. Our faith continued to deepen and grow (as did our family — DEO GRATIAS!!!) and more and more we were becoming horrified at what our children were exposed to at Mass. Irreverence, unbelievable immodesty, extraordinary ministers of the Eucharist smiling and telling me how cute my baby was while holding Our Lord in front of me, hand-clapping, girl altar boys, deacon talking about respecting life “from BIRTH to death”, etc. You all know the list. It’s rampant.
And then… God led us “out of the desert and into the Promised Land”. I love how you put that!!! We discovered this most ancient Mass!!! From the very first time, I knew this was what Mass was supposed to be. THIS was how Christ in the Eucharist was SUPPOSED to be adored, worshiped and glorified. And what about those 14 ALTAR BOYS?!!!!! Where are all the football shirts?!!!! Where are the mini-skirts?!!!! Where are all the women up on the altar?!!!! Where is all the chatting and texting and laughing?!!!!! IT WAS NOT HERE. HE WAS HERE. And everyone KNEW it. Don’t you see? Everyone at this Latin Mass actually believes that the Creator of the Universe is here!!! Yes, He is also there at the Novus Ordo Mass. Absolutely. But I can’t see that the people believe it. How can you believe it and show up in your Steeler shirt and jeans?
We have been blessed with five sons and three daughters so far. Our oldest son is almost MC, our second son is up to acolyte and our two younger ones are torch-bearers. (Youngest is still a baby). And yes, how they RUN to the sacristy!!! How they love two-hour-weekly altar boy practice!!!
Thank you, thank you for this most beautiful rendition of your story. And welcome home, dear Sister in Christ.
(Prayers are continuing for your Meredith!)
God Bless,
Mrs. Jennifer Sikora